Take 2

Iva came home yesterday. She is still here, so it looks like this time it will stick.

Still lots of pain, fatigue, etc. But each day there is slight improvements.

Next week we go back and see the surgeon to talk about the next step. She did not tell Iva any results of the pathology--only that she would tell her on her follow-up visit. We have all pretty much figured out what that means.

Sadly, one of Zoran's co-workers was recently diagnosed with liver cancer. The doctors have told him he is not a candidate for a liver transplant because of the location/size of the tumor. He is seeking a second opinion. Ray, our hearts go out to you and your family. This disease is hell, we know. It never makes sense, and it is always unfair. Everyone is waiting for their own miracle. Sometimes miracles are incredibly small--like finding the strength to get up and carry on as usual. And sometimes miracles can be enormous--being cured. We pray for enormous miracles for Ray, for Iva, and for all those endlessly suffering in this world.

My hope is that we remember that is not for us to understand; that all this somehow is as it is suppose to be. That we do not begrudge others their victories and happiness when we have none ourselves. That we remain grateful for all that we have been left with. That we never run out of the ability to give. To never be dry and resentful.