Anniversary to be forgotten

Wordless Worry

MD Anderson has decided that the cancer is spreading and radiation is not an option. The area is too extensive. There may be some clinical trial option, but no details on that yet.

The suffering the mother endures that has no words.

Reunion

Things have not been going well, in general. Iva has been feeling bad. She drained over a whole liter of fluid from her tube today. The home is missing a component and it is not functioning well. So tonight we bought a ticket and tomorrow at this time, Tony will be home!

Home

Iva is home. Still has the drain. The doctors are clueless. Another trip to MD Anderson will hopefully clear some things up.

Still

Still in the hospital. Maybe tomorrow.

Unexpected

Iva went in yesterday for additional draining of the fluid on her lungs since it has come back after the last procedure. Today she went in for a follow-up appointment, and her lungs were found to be full of fluid and blood. She was admitted to the hospital and is currently waiting to be settled into a room.

They will place a drain in her chest and keep her until she feels better. The last couple of weeks she has been feeling dizzy and short of breath. She has been fatigued and having lots of pain. No appetite and all that.

Our biggest concern is the bleeding. Her first tumor developed a large sack of fluid around it called a hematoma. This tendency to cause bleeding is a component of her type of sarcoma. Telangiectatic features, they call it. Worrisome to say the least.

Changes

We have been undergoing changes in our household. Antonio has left us, seeking an opportunity for a life. Living here, in these walls, has not been much for him. No progress. No chance at independence. He will be missed for the lightness and stability of mood that he brought to this home of ours, but I will not miss seeing the toll it has taken on him. Watching the life being slowly sucked out of him, the aging it has caused, has been unpleasant, to say the least.

Iva goes in tomorrow for a minor procedure. They will be draining some fluid out of her left pleural space.

And in the meantime, we wait for more bad news (or not).